Dear Suchitra, somehow fame seems to have given you a great burden. Even though, in the beginning, your dream was to act, model; whatever your career.... fame found you, and will not let you go. It is reading your pain, which makes me greatful, in a profound way.... my dreams did not come true. I hope you can make sense of what I mean, as I cannot imagine the depth of deceptions, you and your family; must constantly have to scrutinize, for genuinity.(Hugs)

with loving kindness,
North

I hear ya Suchitra.

Can't buy a gun.

Ain't got a rope.

The Aryan drunkard thing is old, yet the qěnēh bośem is illegal.

Ain't got a voice.

I'm a bad bad boy.

This physicality is fast not being so beautious.

BORING

So study the Kabbala, yet it is all about power and control.

Indic pagans not included yet still under the thumb!

You got a circled K on your milk carton, or a U, even your crackers too?

Do you hate faggots?

Do you love money?

Go see a judge set up near you (b/c Noah told ya 2) . . .

BORING

beauteous

"All that is just pretend"
Your accusation gushes,
Your pointed finger trashes
Someone you call a friend.

The curse does have an end
When understanding flashes.
The one your disdain smashes,
The diamond in the ashes...
Is you yourself, my friend.

anger and angst...all within us...plasticity is a way of life these days...yet,sometimes i feel, even if it is all a pretense, it is still fun for those kids for a few moments...

YOU're doing it for the kids?
Who are YOU kidding?
YOU weigh
kids
and
film
on a scale
both objects are for
sale
YOU got the gimmes
and wish another
then another
and another
oh,brother!
Throw away the scale
there is nothing to weigh
trust me
YOU will find YOUr way
LIFE isn't pretend, my friend ~

Suchitra: Your writings and poems bring forth the realities we take for granted. They always get me to think. The above poem is about a public figure whose private and public contradicts each other.

Since I don't have the first hand experience of the temptations availed to the rich and famous, I won't know their excuse/reasons for leading such a contradictory lifestyle. I have always wondered about the flourishing PR business. THe need for specially trained people to clean up the mess so that they can continue to look picture perfect on surface and lead a reckless (emotionally) life underneath. What is missing for them to feel the need to be so self distructive? What keeps them from finding the happiness which is generic to all mankind? rambling but since I have typed all this, I will hit 'post' now! good luck to all who read and get confused. my apology in advance!

Suchitra, instead of reading between the lines may be you should have taken Kaveri to the screening. She would have had a good time.

hi suchitra ! well ya sometimes life brings us on such ends where smiles dont work where the outer face smiles and the heart within breaks into pieces... but life goes on. everyone has his day and everyone reaps the fruits he sows... so dont worry one day will be yours and the others will get their own share of rewards for their acts... so just believe in god after all

FAITH CAN MOVE MOUNTAIN !!!
FOR THOSE WHO BELIEVE
NO EXPLANATION IS NECESSARY
FOR THOSE WHO DO NOT
NO EXPLANATION IS POSSIBLE !!!!
HAVE FAITH IN UR FAITH
AND LET YOUR DOUBTS BE IN DOUBT

GOD MIGHT STRETCH U TO THE BREAKING POINT BUT....
THEN ................
HE WILL SURELY STEP IN