Grace Wilson - March 20, 2008
This is a difficult day for me, communication-wise. I was trying to have a conversation with someone at work and even though my inner voice was screaming at me to just shut up and let it go, I didn’t (of course).
I was trying to tell this person something about me, but I was having a hard time explaining “who I am” (Yeah, I know. It’s so gross.) I wanted this person to think I was cool and/or interesting. That’s never a good sign.
My supervisor and I argued about something ridiculous that I just know I’m right about, and so does he. He is as stubborn as I am.
Even as I write this, my boyfriend just came in to let me know that he was ready to watch a TV show. I asked if he’d done all the things he mentioned to me earlier that he wanted to do before sitting down to watch it. Of course it must have come out wrong and he said, “Yes, yes, how many times do I have to say yes?” Sheesh.
These hard days suck. The only good part about having one of these days is knowing that a good day must be on it’s way. But what I really wish is that I could find my sense of humor. What happened to it?
Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow … got to be better, right?
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Posted by Grace Wilson at March 20, 2008 11:59 PM
"The only good part about having one of these days is knowing that a good day must be on it’s way. But what I really wish is that I could find my sense of humor. What happened to it?"
The problem is exacerbated due to our over estimation of our own coping skills & abilities of humor, while we juxtapose our "bad day" and "good day" experiences.... When in reality we cannot control a lot of variables pertaining to the "bad day" or "good day" experiences that are outside our control. What we can do to turn those bad days better is to identify our vulnerabilities and be rooted in the understanding our human fragility. It is a way to go. Lowering expectations in a case by case basis could be a practical way to deal with the domino effect that leads to a really bad day.
Grace, something's bothering you, right? You can look at what it really is, or you can try this flexibility exercise (not watch it, do it):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg
Or you can try both...
And of course, having a good night's sleep and allowing the mind to settle and recuperate on its own is a natural way to deal with bad days whatever be the circumstances that led to them.
Hi Grace,
This is the Age of Creativity
What are the keywords?
Intuition, visualizing, dreaming, unrestricted possibilities.
A positive mental attitude, mentioned in the last poem in my booklet.
When you think positive, you attract positive people, positive circumstances.
In short: that what you radiate you receive back.
Positive thinkers do not see obstacles and when they see them they know a creative way to turn them into a possibility, a challenge.
Having a good night’s sleep is important, your body will tell you how much sleep it needs when you listen to it.
Having a healthy mind in a healthy body means listening to your body, to yourself and to no-one else. And if you truly know yourself you will radiate this and you will radiate something totally different from what you are doing now. And of course you receive back something totally different.
This is the way a creative person finds bliss in his/her life. In the beginning with glimpses, but gradually there will be more glimpses until life becomes One bliss.
Heaven on earth, it really is possible and it resides inside :)
Life is one big celebration, but You will have to hang the paper chains Yourself, every day.
Have a creative, festive weekend.
Mieke
Hi Grace,
These incidents can weigh us down as we carry them around with us. However, we don't have to identify with them. We can simply let them go as ego shadow incidents. They are not the real you. They are not the real "game" of your life. As we let these things go within our own drama we can let them go in those around us. It all = peace.
Today will be different for you in color and song. Such is this dance of life!
What are you doing to celebrate Spring??
Love,
Trish~~
Sometimes just giving in to it, going to sleep for the night and a new day is just around the corner, which I hope it is now for you! We head strong women have these kind of days sometimes.
I could relate to your words and your had some good intuition here....joanie
HI Joanie.. odd how you mention the humour-loss thing, I was just mentioning this to someone the other day as I've experienced the loss of humour in my life as well. It's like I hit some stress's a few years ago, and it zapped my ability to laugh off some of lifes challenges. I too, long to have the humour back, as it is a great strength-builder of Self.
Mieke.. well said!! I am learning to listen more to my body.. we so often take our body for granted.. and then wonder why we feel so out of sync with it in relationship to our mind..
Much love,
North
Hi North, You know, we tend sometimes to lose control within ourselves as we react too quickly and forget that there are just somethings we can not control. If someone is an jerk to us...we can react and it only hurts us, whether we made a mistake or not. Sometimes it is funny other times not..
I recently made a mistake with with the ex and son and you know, I did feel really really bad as I made a big thing about something I swore I had given them, (an important paper) I was SOOOO sure I had handed off this paper to them. I just knew I was right. So after 4 days of me giving them grief I really wanted to use the S*#T word here and me giving them grief..(I was so frustated lol) I then went to scour my car
and guess what I found...yup, the paper. Either I had given it to my son, who when getting into my car throws his backpack in the back seat and that is where I found it. OR I put it there hoping to make a copy of it at work. I don't remember...So I deeply apologized to the ex..yes, that was very very difficult to do, and my son and just moved on.
Someone once gave me a plaque that hangs in home that says.... "The most wasted day is one in which you have not laughted"....When this paper fiasko was over, that was exactly what I did...;)
Love everyone's comments! Oh, and feeling much better. I knew it would pass, but it was uncomfortable in the moment. You all are kind to allow me to air my dirty laundry here and send compassion back to me. The internet's not usually like that.
It's very nice to know I inhabit this earth with other humans who can own their own sh*t (Joanie, North, etc.). It's refreshing. I mean, who are we really trying to fool? Nobody really believes I'm perfect, right? So why do I try to convince them? Ha ha! Gotta keep that sense of humor.
Trish - Headed out this evening for kayaking on Town Lake. Nice! Beautiful weather here...
Lv,
G
Dear Grace,
If a good day is always "on it's way"...then, in essence, it will never be there.
Perhaps,
"A good day is here"
All that comes our way, I am told, is for our own elevation towards the consciousness.
In Toronto, we have had many months of snow...one day after the other. Still...looking at the trees, there is a sense of patience and faithfulness, that speaks of green leaves and warm breezes to be felt again and again...and the snow will come again, all in it's perfect place.
Love and peace to you Grace and to your boyfriend,
Cinda
C Grace, nothing a good kayaking trip can't solve . . .
I got a lot of sleep last night so I feel a lot better, I gotta do carts tonight (at work), and I'll need all the stamina I can get..
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C Grace, nothing a good kayaking trip can't sol
Dear Grace,
If a good day is always "on i
Love everyone's comments! Oh, and feeling much
Hi North, You know, we tend sometimes to lose c
Life is a joke so no worries!
But do not ever expect that life will get better: always expect the worst, b/c that is usually what you will get. Spoken from experience here . . .
I guess the best thing to do is laugh all the way to the bank.
But for those of us with no money: smile, be non-judgmental, and genuinely strive to love all of humanity (even the ones laughing all the way to the bank)!
And . . .
then we die!
Amen